Thursday, September 17, 2009

給自己的情歌: Nothing's gonna change my love for you

Long Long time not updating my blog

If this blog is a place to purify sth,
it always serves its function

Life is too exciting in a sense that
it becomes overly emotional

Confrontation is what we should learn
How to do it tactfully?

Two different animals being together
Mm... really a hard task



For you, J

Monday, June 22, 2009

全世界失眠

是的
對上的一次
是幾時呢

我不知道
是否做錯了太多
還是距離太遠

看著你的反應
無從估計
你的面𢤦心精

或許是



想起我不完美 你會不會
逃離我生命的範圍
想著你的滋味 我會不會
把這個枕頭 變得甜美

想起白天的約會 忘了晚上的咖啡
只怕感情如潮水 遠離我夢中的堡壘

一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點 如何愛你愛到終點

想起我的時候 你會不會
好像我一樣 不能睡
想像你的曖昧 我會不會
數不到綿羊 一雙一對

一個人失眠 全世界失眠
無辜的街燈 守候明天
幸福的失眠 只是因為害怕閉上眼
如何想你想到六點
如何愛你愛到終點
如何愛你愛到終點

Monday, June 8, 2009

於心有愧

不想提起
未敢忘記



如果我聽歌可眼紅
何以待你好偏不懂
自細做過多少美夢
慈悲的偉論
連乞丐喊窮心也痛
竟怕放懷擁抱你
讓你露歡容
追悔無用
轉眼發現你失蹤

曾聽說過
你某夜結婚未曾露笑容
實在不敢知道我是元凶
大概當初我未懂得顧忌
年少率性害慘你
令人受傷滋味
難保更可悲
這心地再善良
終生怎去向你說對不起

良心有愧
原來隨便錯手
可毀了人一世
立志助世人脫貧以爲
便偉大到像多麽有爲
這種剌猬
連誰曾待我好
都可帶來傷勢
被我害過來接受我跪
是我在制造眼淚
居然想救世

就算積儲獻盡饑荒赤地
而太多債沒處理
累人累己滋味
餘生也記起
數一數我實情不只得你
要說句對不起

於心有愧原來隨便錯手
可毀了人一世
立志助世人脫貧以爲
便偉大到像多麽有爲
這種剌猬連誰曾待我好
都可帶來傷勢
內疚內疚內疚沒作爲
直到某年某日
我能安息於葬禮

仍想你一家可到齊

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

給自己的情歌: life goes on



離開喧嘩的城市 這闕歌襯托出色往事
琴聲天天呼喚我 邊唱邊走照哼Re Do La
雪白變得淡黃 那是晚空月光 從簡單中看迷茫

同行在這客套城堡 有喜總有悲 人海中飄泊
徘徊在這狹窄長梯 有高總有低 如不懂心計 能珍惜一切

回家一刻哼著唱 經典金曲掛口邊細嚐
如果一天失落了 傷過的他更懂得快樂
雪白變得淡黃 那是晚空月光 來簡單的向前看

同行在這客套城堡 有喜總有悲 人海中飄泊
徘徊在這狹窄長梯 有高總有低 如不懂心計 能得到更多

留在這客套城堡 有悲總有喜 人不要自危
隨時代走眼淚換這雙手 再辛苦也好 亦不要淡忘 前景多好看

不要淡忘

Pressure. Murmur. Pray

A mistake not properly handled will escalate until it becomes out of your control.





If W is still with me, I know that I will not make the mistake.





Could I say that, ultimately, my love to Z may costs my job? (I know I should not have this as it carries no logical link.)





Worse, the mistake may result in a long run effect on some people’s rice bowls.





I always say that, I only need a few bucks to feed myself, and luckily mom and dad don’t need my money. This implies freedom, in some sense.





I can say that, it is the best I can do when I had been experiencing the dark age in my life, which consists of a double dose of sorrow of breaking-up, the eternal departure of the lady who bring me up, the change of status of my beloved sister, the serious illness of my dad, and a write-off of the work done for a whole month. It is God’s grace that I am still standing here.





But I know that what I lack is not the analytical power, language ability or the inter-personal skills. It is the insufficient understanding of how high stake is my job. And also the lack of the persistence to get the job done, even if it implies a lot of confrontation and debate with people from different positions. Being carried away by the less important tasks, I fail to concentrate on what matter most. Attitude towards the core business matters most.





I should salute to my colleagues: how can you guys survive in such a pressure cooker? How many sleepless nights you are having in a year?





Heartfelt thanks for the kindness of my friends and colleagues. I know that I have tons of friends, genuine friends who care about me. I cannot imagine life without them.





I recall the only time I see Z crying in front of me. My empathy to her, at that moment, is only superficial. Now I have in-depth understanding. May be more that that.





W is mostly correct on my personality. Some patterns are repetitive.





My bottom line is, if it costs me so much already, I will not let the guilty feeling to beat me. I still have important tasks to do.





My lord will not ask me bearing a cross that I am not capable of. Please lead my way.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Eason new album: H3M

Looping and Looping



The song... The movie... Is the song written for the movie?

Dunno why, it is touching...

You know why? Please tell...

Friday, March 20, 2009

給自己的情歌: 遇見

聽見 冬天的離開 我在某年某月 醒過來
我想 我等 我期待 未來卻不能因此安排

陰天 傍晚 車窗外 未來有一個人在等待
向左 向右 向前看 愛要拐幾個彎才來

我遇見誰 會有怎樣的對白
我等的人 他在多遠的未來
我聽見風來自地鐵和人海
我排著隊 拿著愛的號碼牌

我往前飛 飛過一片時間海
我們也曾在愛情裡受傷害
我看著路 夢的入口有點窄
我遇見你是最美麗的意外
總有一天 我的謎底會揭開



I miss you